Cookies!!!!!!

I have never been so happy to eat store bought chocolate chip cookies until today. They were like home in a convenient little package. I probably could have made cookies, but I saw that package in the store and seized it like an escaping animal. I ate 3 whole cookies when I got back from the store. Feeling guilty, I then exercised. Those cookies made me feel really good. :)
-Jess

Hot Chocolate

To my disappointment, I found a melted chocolate bar this morning. It was much harder to portion and eat that way. The thought of chocolate reminded me that in the hectic schedule of life last Christmas, I left my hot chocolate mug at Jay's house. I hope it has been getting some good use. I have some special drink chocolate so that we can again share hot chocolate on Christmas. I am so excited for Jay's visit.

Rain and Stew

Today was a cold, wet, horribly yucky affair. I got up around 5am to talk to Jay, like I try to do every day. We got to talk for about 15 minutes before I gave up and went back to bed because I felt terrible. I got up around 8 and had a bowl of müsli with milk and almonds. I also had some turkey. I went to my plastics workshops too. The first one was all about experiments, and it was really fun. The second one was more of a lecture, and I was bored. I had to leave before the second workshop was over because the acetone he used in an experiment made me a bit faint. I later went to the store to purchase water and mouthwash. After returning, I munched on some Jelly Bellies while I made stew. The stew turned out awesome. I will definitely have to make this one again:  beef, broccoli, carrots, potatoes, onions, garlic, Italian spices, onion soup mix and olive oil. Sometimes the simplest recipes turn out the be the most delicious. I need to do my Thermo. homework before tomorrow, but I'm procrastinating majorly. For now, I'm going to savor my stew. After I've finished eating, I suppose I should start working on my homework. Jay isn't online right now so I have fewer excuses for being distracted..

<3 Jess

sigh....

I've decided that I hate being alone. I'm always alone now, and frankly it's my fault. If I had not come to Germany then I would be surrounded by my friends and family. I guess in the end this will make me stronger, but right now it's making me sad.I miss my friends, and I miss Jay. I'm glad when I do get to talk to him, but it's very hard being here. I know I won't make another choice like this ever again. I suppose I should get back to the homework that I don't understand, not because it's hard, but because I don't understand the question. So frustrating!

I will be so excited to see Jay for Christmas. That will certainly be an amazing adventure for us. In the meantime I must just soldier on and try not to cry too much.

Promises

Well it's been a while since I posted something on here. Honestly, I'm procrastinating for an essay I don't want to write, but anyways back to the post.

My weekend in Holland with Jay was more than memorable. I shall be a crotchety old lady and still remember that trip. The feeling of relief, joy, and love that I felt in the train station will be with me forever. I was so grateful that Jay and I were in the same country again. Our first hug was so powerfully passionate.I could tell he had missed me just as much as I had missed him. The cuddling in the taxi was amazing. I had nearly forgotten what it was like to be wrapped in those strong arms. We spent the rest of the weekend together. We hardly ever left the sight of each other. Jay was sweeter than usual, but I didn't mind. I think he was trying to make up for making me sad earlier in my stay here. Either way, he proved without a doubt that he loves me a lot more than he did when I left and that he is never ever going to leave. I shall never ever forget all the love that filled that weekend.

I have been sleeping in the superman shirt again while cuddling with JayBear. I asked Jay to wear it while we were together so I could have it for sleeping when I got back here.

My exercise regimen has been doing wonders. I have no idea how much I weigh now, but the numbers don't really matter. I know that all the clothes I brought with me are considerably too big, and I have some ridiculous muscle tone all over my body. I know that I'm the thinnest that I've ever been, and I'm still getting smaller and fitter. My arms and legs are developing really nice shapes. Jay is really appreciative of my new found core. Let's just say he is impressed with what I can do with it.

I have managed to reverse the accidental damage I did to my hair with cheap products. It has returned to a nice healthy texture and is growing again. I'm trying to be extra gentle with it so I don't have to get as many haircuts this year. Split ends are the enemy. They slow growth and make me have to get haircuts. My hair is twice as long as it was last year, and I have no plans of ever cutting it short again. I want it to return to the lovely length that I carried most of childhood. I miss having hair that goes down to my bum. It's very sexy and brings many styling options for formal, fancy hairstyles, even though it is a mild pain to take care of hair that long. I don't really mind. I loved having hair that long.

I am going to continue my procrastination for the day by doing a bit of grocery shopping.

<3 Jess

School Has Started

I was supposed to finally start school on Monday of this week, but as it turns out I have no classes on Monday. Plus my classes don't start until tomorrow. I'm nervous and excited.

I got the bugs worked out of my rent process. Hooray. Now I won't get evicted for not paying.

I have been doing well with my exercise plan. I use my Zumba DVD almost every day, and it is kicking my ass. I have abs now thanks to that thing. Jay likes my new found sexy. ;) I have also been eating much better. Chocolate is my weakness, but I'm working around that. If I don't buy it, then I don't eat it. I just have to have some restraint in the store. Monday I bought Clementines instead of chocolate, and I'm glad. They are so delicious, and I can eat 3 or 4 of them without consequence.

I get to see Jay on Friday! That's two days from now! I am super excited. I cannot wait to hug him and kiss him again. I am also excited to see a different country, and all the Lego creations at Lego World. I am just so excited about seeing Jay that all those other things are kind of flat. My plane leaves Friday evening. I shall be quite crazy to see him. I may not be able to focus on my lecture earlier that day.

Jay is bringing me many useful things that I left at home or have realized that I need since I got here. I'm excited to get the care package, but I really just want to see Jay. I don't care what he's bringing with him as long as I get to see him. I have learned to cherish him more than anything else. I will never forget that ever again.

10 Days

I get to see Jay in ten days!!!!!!! I'm super excited. :D I can't wait to be able to hug him again. My time here is starting to blur together and fly by. I hope it keeps this up. I want this year to be over quickly. Today I have my last grammar test and Thursday is my final exam for my language class. I'm nervous, but excited to be finished. I'm supposed to start classes on Monday, but the course advisor has not responded to my emails yet. It's very frustrating. I'm going to go looking for his office sometime this week and see why he hasn't responded yet. I ended up buying some really crappy hair care products without realizing. They seriously damaged my hair. Right now I'm trying to reverse the effects so I don't have to get a hair cut. Saturday, I bought some winter boots finally. I ordered a Kindle yesterday. I'm super excited about that. I hope it gets to Jay's house before he comes to visit me. I really really want it. I'm a sucker for reading. I've been doing a lot of writing lately too. I write for this blog, in my journal, for class, and just because. I've started considering grad school in a couple different forms. This year is going to a year of thinking. I've already started doing a lot of extra thinking. My facebook is pretty much turned off, and I haven't logged on in several days. It feels nice to not be tied to facebook all the time. I'm super excited to see Jay again! He started planning his Christmas visit. I know I'm blessed to have him. He is quite the perfect man. :) We've been doing a lot of super sweet planning and talking. I need to get back to studying for my test today, but Jay is always on my mind. Oh, I don't know if I said this already or not, but I got JayBear a girlfriend. Jay named her JessBear. We are quite inventive with names you know. hahahahaha Anyways I need to study.

<3 Jess